I had been really confused, when things had gotten the worst last year. And I remember, sending Christmas texts to every closed friend of mine, asking them to love me because i thought, without you, there wouldn't be anyone that loved me more than you did.
It ended up using months to recover, and i realized, friends are so much better than boyfriend. When i realized, friends would be there when u needed someone. There is always a friend, a good-friend, a close friend, the best guy friend that willing, so much willing, to comfort me when i cried over the phone, when i said things very emotionally, when i said i couldn't move on, when i believed that i couldn't have this shiny smile on my face anymore. I told him, my everything... He always think so positively, comforted me indirectly, accompanied not to sleep for nights. I wasn't exaggerate..
After that, my life moved on without boyfriend. But i met boys, chasing after me like flies in the university. I felt so much different. Partly because of them, it kind of made me moved on to the new life. Unfortunately, I forgot to thank this friend of mine. What i remembered was I kept surrounded with chasing-after boys, without feeling thankful that actually, it was the best guy-friend that helped me out so much... too much.
However, the realistic of this world that makes me couldn't accept the fact that, they actually treated me like strangers upon my rejection. And my heart started to ache, how can people be so strayed away when we so much used to be quite closed together. It doesn't make sense~ I felt heart broken, i lost closed-friends, exes, and exes friends. Too many to count.*cries*
Now, what i still left. it was still this good friend, that treated me still the same, always the same.
Always this over-caring, this dumb but too cute looking, this guy that never would think of himself as first priority.
I remember last time, how i wished the ex-ie never blocked me from seeing his posts, never changed his password, never ignored me, never be that cruel to me. How i wished, what he posted was related to me, like things stayed the same.
However, things really do changed. never the same~
Now i wish, good friends will always stay, good things stayed as memories. I don't hate, i just accept.
And for the strangers that you treating me as, I don't know why I still cared..
but you would be the next thing i starting to get over.
someday, u will miss like how much i missed,
someday, u will be sad like how much I am,
Someday you will be loving me back like the others and i wouldn't be the same.
It ended up using months to recover, and i realized, friends are so much better than boyfriend. When i realized, friends would be there when u needed someone. There is always a friend, a good-friend, a close friend, the best guy friend that willing, so much willing, to comfort me when i cried over the phone, when i said things very emotionally, when i said i couldn't move on, when i believed that i couldn't have this shiny smile on my face anymore. I told him, my everything... He always think so positively, comforted me indirectly, accompanied not to sleep for nights. I wasn't exaggerate..
After that, my life moved on without boyfriend. But i met boys, chasing after me like flies in the university. I felt so much different. Partly because of them, it kind of made me moved on to the new life. Unfortunately, I forgot to thank this friend of mine. What i remembered was I kept surrounded with chasing-after boys, without feeling thankful that actually, it was the best guy-friend that helped me out so much... too much.
However, the realistic of this world that makes me couldn't accept the fact that, they actually treated me like strangers upon my rejection. And my heart started to ache, how can people be so strayed away when we so much used to be quite closed together. It doesn't make sense~ I felt heart broken, i lost closed-friends, exes, and exes friends. Too many to count.*cries*
Now, what i still left. it was still this good friend, that treated me still the same, always the same.
Always this over-caring, this dumb but too cute looking, this guy that never would think of himself as first priority.
I remember last time, how i wished the ex-ie never blocked me from seeing his posts, never changed his password, never ignored me, never be that cruel to me. How i wished, what he posted was related to me, like things stayed the same.
However, things really do changed. never the same~
Now i wish, good friends will always stay, good things stayed as memories. I don't hate, i just accept.
And for the strangers that you treating me as, I don't know why I still cared..
but you would be the next thing i starting to get over.
someday, u will miss like how much i missed,
someday, u will be sad like how much I am,
Someday you will be loving me back like the others and i wouldn't be the same.
