method of being alive

okay, I'm inspired to write something down in the middle of struggling for exams.

when you feel like you have no one, turn around and look who are walking at the back, with you, supporting you always.

When you are feeling lifeless, think it the other way around. 

this is not the only direction where you see the world is.

things might not be super perfect, but that doesn't mean life is not beautiful. 

love live. 

keep on believing!

 there are many good person around, why bother chasing for the one that doesn't belong to you.

enjoy your life. :)

last but not least, sharing a a meaningful quote by Marcel Pagnol, 

"The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be".

if you are still unhappy, get over it! JIA.YOU!

 prove to us that the present is happier than the past. :)

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till then!~

stressful

feeling so stressful nowadays. I have so many things to worry about, not just exams (the main concern) but also my personal life. recently, I have a serious conflict with a friend, he was back-stabbing, I not sure whether it is his personality problem or I was too pettish and so, he didn't like my attitude. I mean seriously, do you need to tell the whole unfair thing we treated on to OUR friends so that, maybe they were gonna feel pity for you. That's so immature behaviour. I seriously have no idea how to deal with him anymore. More hard feelings going around by simply talking with him. I didn't know he is this kind of person, like telling to the whole world of people's bad stuffs?. And the bad stuffs i meant here didn't go as bad as we have ever thought, he might just exaggerating. And the unfair stuffs i mentioned was not about unfair to him, it might simply because it was unfair to others while it doesn't necessarily to be him, i mean he is not the victim, why should he care? What should he care?. Given that people volunteered doing something for us, how could he be back-stabbed us and adviced our friend not to help us? None of your business alright. Not like we were asking him to help, isn't it?.

okay, let's talk about emotional changes. Maybe exam is around the corner and people started to get emo at this time. I feel that they aren't as happy. Rushing for assignments, started to get their ass working, sitting on chair and started studying, pressure arise, lesser talking, friendship bond's getting worsen. I started to feel like they are so strange, probably strangers that I've met for several times or just acquaintances that been rarely talked. We weren't like this, were we?. How come things changed so differently after degree started? There's something that i wanted to ask, but  i wouldn't dare to. I am not showing i do not care, just sometimes, i feel so strange asking so many things and all you wanted to answer was just I'm okay or yes and no. That wasn't the point, if people really asked that, showing that they were prepared to listen to your stories, isn't it?.

Probably when we got matured, more things pass through our mind and we started to think a lot.  


till then.
exam's coming, i think i going to deactivate my facebook account soon. See you till i have done with the exams. Wish me luck peeps. :)

stronger

Seriously,  you have been very inspiring. :)







- you have taught me a lesson.
- hell yeah, "watch me!"

know what?!


Look at what you have changed after all...

AND 

tell me you are not regret. 

YOU said I was childish, You said I did not finish the food I ordered.

You said I behaved like a kid.

You said I was pampered.

You said I was dependent.

 open your eyes and LOOK, what HAVE I changed!!.

thanks for making me a better person.

I chose this path. I will not regret.

middle of the night

I just felt like I wanna write something here though I have many assignments due on next Monday. Those assignments carry quite a lot of marks (15 % + 4 %) but sometimes, I just don't feel like writing one whole page of essay without the fixed main points. Well, okay, I'm lying, I do not have any mood to write plenty of words without the sense of feeling to do so. I do not want to write only a sentence of words after cracking for one hour. Probably, I am not as talented as one of my "acquaintances", he could finish up 3 pages of words in few hours. I just couldn't, I don't have such talent, pity little thing huh?.

the thing that inspired me to write at this minute was my complicated personal life. I didn't realize that until my friend actually told me that a Taiwanese series is suitable for me to watch because it involved many complicated relationships between the characters, they could not understand the stories. They said I would understand since I have been through many complicated relationships, that was a little weird. So, do you think that my personal life was a little confusing and complicated?. Well, HAHA!, Many friends have been asking what was wrong with my facebook statuses. Those emo ones by the way. Hmmmm, Thanks for the caring laaa... but I am now hating the so called "caring" boy because he has to be missed my quiz from getting 10/10 every time while he gotten all correct for my friends. I was damn pissed off okay?!. T^T



so, I guess I'm a complicated person to be in love?. xD
Nah, whatever~
Probably it gets simpler when love doesn't involve hurting but just plain liking each other. :)
Jealousy is the obstacle I think. D:


well now, i am crapping here because I don't know what to crap in my assignments. :(

P/S stop visiting if you are not interested on this blog. This is my diary that available for everyone whom interested on what I have written. And, this is my DEAR DAIRY, which that supposed to mean events happen in my life.




Till then.