little secret. shhhhhh!

i had naively thought that somebody would have really paid his attention on me because he had helped me in the sense of everything. Alright, maybe it was not everything at all but i felt like he was really good to me and by this, i thought he was kind of liking me. N.A.I.V.E!
And when he was gone, i waited him to online for the whole day although it was ended up with disappointment. But i did not give up in the first place, i waited and tried to chat with somebody but then. sigh!. i seriously did not understand what he wants because neither did he talk something that i expected. How much efforts that i have put in did not simply equal to how much succeeding will i be achieving. That might simply mean nothing to him. Till he did something that i do not feel like wanting to chat with him for one second right now. i wished he could disappear in my life so that i would not be remebering the sweet memories that we had before....
But at the same time, i am having a huge dilemma of whether wanting him to be mine, close friends or just acquaintances? We used to be very close last time, but now, i have noticed we are just simply acquaintances. He used to be very talkative and we had lots to talk last time, playing, eating, touching, caring, eye-to-eye contacting, heart-with-heart talking and more. But now, when we met each other, we did not even greet to each other. Just a simple smiling sign to show we know each other. That was awful. Even strangers and/or caucasians did show their smile to me when we were eye contacting.
I really doubt this relationship would last forever. he did not seem to put in effort for further relation. 

so right, not waiting.

i have MOVED ON!.

I know he will never be viewing this blog, so it's obviously alright for me to mention about this matter here.
I knew he wouldn't be even clicked. :')

-THE END-

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meh, semester break.

one week of past-schedule:

Fly up high, it is semester break- monday.

Went to Sri Petaling to have a romantic night view with mommy and aunt.

As you can see, it was so tiring because i had naively thought that snapping a shot while jumping was not a hard task.

However, i had ended up jumping for trillion times and i had my leg cramped.

Alright, i deserved it. i had underestimated those people who could easily snapped a shot while jumping up high!

BUT i can certainly deal with it.

 

Tuesday

went to a swimming pool for half an hour and got kicked out by the staff .

facilities are not allowed by non-residence,

only common area is available?.

outing - Tuesday!
caught a movie named Fright night with bestie but the cinema in IOI mall was freezing cold.
I shrink into a fluffy ball and waited the movie to be ended.
Although the movie was great, i didn't feel like watching it due to the extreme coldness.
went shopping after, and bought a shirt in F.O.S together with a friend.
And yeah, i had a car accident on that day on the way home. That was because i got lost at that place and i was nervously drove my car. i do not have an extremely good driving skills, i am not a boy, please, so say whatever u wanted to over this kind of stuff.

i am not as thin. right but i can deal with it. thanks.

that was a cardigan that i should have bought but ended up didn't buy.... It's only 49.90. :(
 worth the money??.

Sing sing sing - wednesday!!
my singing was not as good. but i paid and so, why wouldn't i sing? The facilities of k box is for customers to sing! so yeahhh, everyone interested, let's go and sing together!

ended with a smile and going with a bitter sad face on Monday itself.

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WELL well well, i am bored! :)

time to get things started!!. STUDY!!! Exam is around the corner. Please DO remind me!!. stop playing tetris battle!! Stop doing nothing at home!.
urgh!!!... :<

alright, i know it's a short update. promise to have a longer post this week okay!. just be patient. AND HOLD ON!!... :)

carefree

next week sem break. feel so relieved. :)

screwed up.

i hate how weak i am right now. thinking of giving up and changing my entire science plan to a business course.
i really hate how this feels!!
i have ton of work to catch up with and yet, i am thinking of rubbish.
i really hate the moment that i am weak and had to let others to see the weak side of me.
and now, it's all revealed and i have no idea of what i going to face.

This feels sucks especially when friends out there advising and consoling me. But i know, the truth isn't as what they said, isn't it? Just as i over-estimated myself, underestimated the difficulty of this course. over-estimated my capability, thinking that i could handle this workload.

Because you know that, i couldn't. I just Couldn't!!.
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*cried madly!!*

a break

currently incredibly lazy to post any post related to my johor trip that I've been lately. anyway, it was unexpectedly memorable in the sense of home-staying and nights-driving (drifting), playing, walking under sunshine, shopping (enjoyed myself although shopped with two boys was weird) , lim teh-ing (at midnight), screaming over cats and dogs. Also, it was already great spending whole time chatting. :)

Threatening do works on me sometimes. As in bluffing about batu pahat is a village and there are only public toilets?. Right, that was what my mom been telling such as bathe at some public toilets that i've seen in those traditional movies thousand years ago. Certainly, it wasn't that bad. The beginning of journey has already started off with threatening!!